Tempus Fugit

Time Flies…

   Sep 09

Dr Insomniac – Take TWO!

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck!

Okay I am not impressed. I have just spent 20 minutes writing an entry and then bloody firefox decides to go and die on me…..so I lose the post.

Right well…..lesson learned….save your post regularly.

Anyhoo I was just lamenting that with sleeping patterns such as mine I will be totally rooted when it comes time for me to hold down a full time job again. I need a job that allows me to work when I am awake and not expect me to work when I feel like sleeping. I don’t believe it’s possible for me to have a sleep pattern that could be any more regimented than “regularly irregular”.

I’d really love to write screenplays or novels or something like that – it means I could dictate when I want to work and when I don’t. Problem is I think that actually requires some talent and creativity….and motivation for that matter….. I am feeling like I am lacking all of the above at the moment.

I hope my lamentations are just transient – surely I have to snap out of this state sooner or later.

I just found an awesome quote in my wanderings….

“I write because I can’t do any of the following: paint, sculpt, sing, take photos, play an instrument, commute, wear a suit, remember appointments, return phone calls, work for a boss, concentrate in a meeting, serve food and drink, teach, or do anything else at all, really. Nor can I ever ignore the urge to try and get out what’s in, however hard I try.” — Nick Hornby,

I think that describes a little how I am feeling – except that I am yet to produce anything of note. Maybe I should just start writing and keep going … plodding on churning out verbal excrement until such time that it turns into something worthy of looking at.

I used to dream… I used to be creative… When I was much younger I lived in a world inside my head… and then one day I woke up and found myself in “Real Life”. I am not sure whether I like what I see in “Real Life”…. I want to go back to a world where terrorists don’t fly into buildings full of people. I want to go back to a world where terrorists don’t blow up nighclubs full of people. I want to go back to a world where school gymnasiums full of people don’t become bloodbaths.

At best my escape from “Real Life” consists only of reading books or watching movies. You can be certain that regardless of how bad things are within the movie or the book that you are reading… you can always put the book down or walk out of the movie. You can’t walk out on “Real Life”. Well…. you conceivably could….but where would you go?

When you really enjoy the world that is within a movie or a book…. you and always return – over and over and over as often as you want.

Speaking of escapism… I saw The Village. Predictable. But enjoyable none the less. And something interesting to think about.

I find it inspiring to be able to read blogs such as Zach Braff’s Garden State Blog and Avery’s Domain. Both offer personal insight into writing for screen and also show that it is in fact (with persistence) possible to get what’s in your head as an idea out and onto the big screen.

Well enough rambling.

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